“If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you.”
I went from doing horrible dieting like starving myself, diet pills, detox cleansing to even finding myself in the bathroom at the toilet after eating a meal. I was afraid to go to the doctor and get diagnosed with bulimia but every single symptom I had was the description of bulimia (bulimia Is a serious eating disorder marked by binging, followed by methods to avoid weight gain). I did not know if it was a combination of my depression, anxiety or Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD is a mental disorder characterized by the obsessive idea that some aspect of one’s own body or appearance is severely flawed and causes exceptional measures to hide or fix their dysmorphic parts on themselves). I didn’t realize all the harm and damage I had been causing my body until I went to the doctor and did routine blood work. I was told I was extremely anemic; so much so that I could possibly require blood transfusion. Working in the medical field (OBGYN) you see first hand real life problems others actually have such as infertility, birth defects and breast cancer. I decided I wasn’t going to allow bulimia or BDD define who I was.
It took me little over a year to put a stop to the wreckless dieting and recover from the harm I had made to my body. At this point, one of my sister’s best friends, Jessica, introduced me to Crossfit. She told me a little bit of what they do and how amazing and awesome the coaches are! I walked in one day with my husband and mother-in-law (who also now do CrossFit!) to give CrossFit a try and see what it was all about. Sure enough 10 minutes into the warm up, I knew CFSH was home. Later that week I had my one-on-one intro sessions with coach Keelee and I connected with her right away. She is talented, humble, caring, knowledgeable (and have I mentioned she is Wonder Woman?) just like all the other coaches at CFSH. I knew that I was in good hands with all of the coaches. They all make you feel so welcomed and cared for. Which was something I hadn’t felt in a while. I was ready to get out of depression, meet new people and feel acknowledged for who I really am.
I have been a CrossFitter since May and have loved every second of it. My progress has developed and my confidence has gotten better. My goals when I started CrossFit were to love myself, appreicate my body, get involved in the community and learn a healthy approach to nutrition. My next step is to to work with Coach Alex with a 12 week nutrition plan. That’s one of the things that I appreciate about CFSH: they have resources to help you inside and outside the gym. I feel 100% better since the day I stepped into the box. Each and every single smile from my coaches and the other members of CFSH make a difference to my day.
I could have continued my old habits and probably gotten worse but I didn’t. I did not allow weakness to define the strength and power that I have within me. I feel confident enough to share my story for someone like me who could be going through the same thing. My advice would be don’t feel embarrassed or ashamed; ask for help!
Body shaming has always been a huge impact in social media. It follows you everywhere, it’s almost impossible not to fall into insecurities or to feel ashamed of your body. Love yourself and your body. Admire it for what it can do and embrace your glow. I want to give a huge thanks to my Coach Tim for allowing me to have this opportunity to share my story and prove to others that CFSH isn’t just a place to come and exercise, it’s a community. You become part of a team, you motivate, push and support each other. I appreciate and thank my husband for supporting and loving me regardless of my flaws; he has always made me feel loved and cared for.